Very Painful Day

Today the pain is severe. I struggle to even walk. Pain in my hips, my knees, my neck and shoulders. My entire body aching with flu like pain. When does it all end? Why has this happened to me? I push myself to even type today. It's a cold and rainy day here in Texas. The wind has a chill about it. The day is just gloomy and grey.

Days like this is really hard to keep my mind off my pain. Like I have posted here before, most people would just tell me to get up and get moving and you won't think about the pain. If I only wished it was that easy. Believe me, I would do it in a heartbeat to get rid of this pain. It's a pain like I have never had before. I refer to my aching pain as flu like. That's because it's the only way I can describe it. Think back to the worse flu you ever had. Do you remember the aches and pains that your body had during that time? That's just how I feel on days like today. Other days the pain is still there, it's just the pain isn't as severe as days like this. It's so hard to get warm. My body has changed in so many ways, I really don't even know where to begin to explain the changes.

I am thankful and feel blessed for the other things in my life that doesn't involve the pain. Like my husband. Without my husband, I don't know where I would be. He supports me through my pain and does things for me without being asked. He accepts my bad days, but looks forward to my good ones as well. I have two wonderful kids who have their own families now. They understand some of what I go through, but they don't really see me at my worst. My support also comes from the online fibro support group I found on line about a year ago when I was diagnosed. The people there have been so supportive and encouraging when I am down. They lift me up when I am sad, they laugh when I laugh and cry when I cry. I am so very blessed for everyone who at least tries to understand this beast called Fibromyalgia.

I know one day I will be back in the work force pulling my own weight. Actually, I look forward to those days more than people really know. I will soon have another grand baby come late March. I am so excited about the new arrival. Katie Bug is growing so big and is now walking. She has been a true inspiration to me during this past year. Although I am not able to get her unless Jeff is here with me, I cherish those moments each time she is with us.

I hope each of you have a pain free day. Enjoy the days you have, the health you are blessed with, the friends that you cherish. We are not promised a tomorrow so make memories today that will carry on through a lifetime. God Bless Each of You!!!