Still Learning to Cope

I still find myself learning to cope with this fibro beast. Some days harder than others but everyday is filled with some type of pain. Maybe in the same place may the pain has moved. But, the pain is still there, it still lingers and it won't let me go!

I've learned that each day is a challenge, but each day is a new beginning for me. I have re-learned how to do things, like work in the yard, cleaning the house. Things that "normal" people take for granted. Not that "normal" people don't appreciate the things they can do, it's just that when someone has an illness, it's always a challenge to do even the smallest of things. So, I learn, I listen and I watch.

My biggest challenge is learning how to play with my precious grand daughter, Katie. She is my inspiration, my sunshine my life. She has brought me so much joy in the short time she has been on this Earth. I know she came as a gift from God. She came at a time when I was newly diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and still grieving for my best friend of 30 plus years who died last year. I know she was sent by God to help me cope, to help me understand life again, to help me appreciate the small things in life again.

I have struggled for years with issues that many don't know about and will never know about. This year I have regained my strength, taking control back of my life and just enjoying the small things in life. I love life again and it's all because of God. I have renewed my commitment to God and let me tell you, it's a wonderful feeling! It's a feeling of understanding God's creation and having a deep appreciation of it.

October 31st I had back surgery. I arrived back home on Saturday and I already feel better than I have in a while. My husband has been wonderful and taking care of me. He makes sure I have what I need or what I want. He has cooked, cleaned and done laundry. He is just awesome!! I have also been surrounded by family and friends who love me as well. My sister's and brother have called to say hello and ask if I need anything. My best friend has called and stopped by the hospital to see if I needed anything. I am so very blessed having such wonderful people around me. I no longer feel empty inside, I have the feeling of life deep within me that I know will never ever go away. I have given God all of my troubles and worries and my load is no longer heavy. I appreciate the small things in life. The flowers are beautiful, the birds sing louder and the sun is so much brighter.

I am becoming involved with my Church more. My first event was at the Fall Festival and what a wonderful fellowship!!! I am also attending Sunday School now and I just can't say enough about it. I know this is where I should be, where I belong, where I will do God's will. I missed Sunday School and Church Services this past Sunday because of my surgery, but I will return next weekend. I feel so much more alive now, and having Fibromyalgia doesn't seem to be a problem for me to cope with any longer. It's a horrible thing to have but with God all things are possible.

When you feel you can't do something because you are in pain, you have to still try. You can't give up, you can't let it win. You have to face this beast head on and deal with whatever you are dealt. Think outside the box for a change, you just might be pleasantly surprised with the outcome. Enjoy the little things in life today, for we are not promised a tomorrow. Ask God into your life and watch the change from deep within you. God will take all of your worries, your troubles, your fears and your dreams. Don't carry the load alone, for He is there waiting for you.